Part 10: Vera, Xray for TB, clean glass

I still can't sleep. I haven't slept more then 3 hours in the past 2 days. I don't know why. I'm always worried, always paranoid. I'm still keeping to myself. Observing more then participating.

We went to the library. I guess it's a nice thing, but I'm sick of being controlled and having these dumb schedules for our lives. Harding's wife visited. When she's called Mrs. Harding, she always says she's preferred to be called "Vera". The couple sit and mock each other's poor English when speaking. She also says she wishes Harding's "hoity toity" friends would stop by. The ones with the "nice long hair combed so perfectly and the limp little wrists that flip so nice". She then leaves, and Harding asks what McMurphy what he thought of her. He says "She's got on hell of a set of chabobs. Big as Old Lady Ratched's." I laughed to myself.

We then had to get X rays for TB. McMurphy finds out that Mrs. Ratched can send anyone she wants to get electroshock therapy and/or a lobotomy treatment. He also finds out that the rest of the Acutes are in the hospital voluntarily. He asks Billy why he would be there if he could be out driving convertibles or having romantic relationships, and Billy cries that he is not as brave as McMurphy.

We had another meeting. Nurse Ratched states that we should get punished for our insubordination for not cleaning a few weeks ago. I thought this was bullshit. She threatens to take away a game room. We all look at McMurph for his reaction, and he seems calm this time. After the meeting she goes into the station and McMurphy proceeds in there as well, saying he wants his cigarettes. She does not give them to him, and he punches the glass, and it shatters everywhere. He claims it was so spotless, he didnt even know it was there.